Post by Genesis on Sept 1, 2010 8:27:34 GMT -5
-Chapter 1, 1st entry: In search of the Goddess-
...I had a dream.
It was the first dream I have had in a very, very long time. As long as I can really remember, as a matter of fact. So long have I slept with my mind in darkness that I almost did not think it was possible. I am a monster, and I once believed that monsters do not have honor nor dreams.
While I now believe that even monsters have honor, I was quite certain that they do not dream for numerous physiological reasons. Perhaps I am a rare exception to that rule: a deviance. An "evolved" monster.
Whatever the case may be, I had a dream, and that is all that matters. Even though I only remember a few details of it, I believe that I know the important ones.
In my dream, I saw vast new worlds, with hundreds upon thousands of people. I saw vast verdant plains, tall stalwart mountains and deep shining seas. I flew over them, unchained from my sins.
And at the end of my dream, I saw someone..A woman. The Goddess? I do not know. I could not see her face or features, only a silhouette. A shadow, of sorts. A shadow that spoke to me through the darkness.
"You are not a monster."
That was what I heard her say. I could imagine that she was beautiful, however, merely by the sound of her voice. It was...comforting. When she spoke, I felt suddenly as If I somehow belonged in this world. I felt like I could suddenly believe again.
I daresay I even felt human somehow. A far-fetched proposal, granted, but while the statement may never be true the feeling associated with it is all too clear to me.
And so is my mission.
I must find these new worlds, find out why they are in my dreams, and use my monstrous power to help them. Yes, I will be shunned, hated, condemned and even exiled, but that is a risk I am willing to take. For I believe that is what my Goddess would ask of me. Perhaps, along my Journey, Ill find that which I have sought for so long.
My goddess.
